NUMBA 5

Paintbrush

I keep my paint brush with me 
Wherever I may go,
In case I need to cover up
So the real me doesn’t show.
I’m so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you’ll do – that
You might laugh or say mean things.
I’m afraid I might lose you.

I’d like to remove all my paint coats
To show you the real, true me,
But I want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see.
So if you’ll be patient and close your eyes,
I’ll strip off all my coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show.

Now my coats are all stripped off.
I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still love Me with all that you see,
You are my friend, pure as gold.

I need to save my paint brush, though,
And hold it in my hand,
I want to keep it handy
In case somebody doesn’t understand.
So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me true,
But please let me keep my paint brush with me
Until I love me, too.

I love this poem because it is so true to some girls. I found it in a chicken soup book awhile back and i just have that poem in my journal with me constantly. It just really shows what some people really feel like on the inside and in a way its sad. I dont know why it is so touching to me but it just is, i find it very good. Chicken soup books are good to read if your looking for things that relate to you, its by people that know where your coming from and its just a good connection.

NUMBA 4

Th1rteen R3asons Why

Meet Clay Jensen, just a normal teenager like the rest of us. The only small difference between him and everyone else is the one and only, Hannah Baker. Hannah Baker had committed suicide just a few weeks earlier, and when Clay receives a mysterious box without a return address, it changes his life. Inside are 13 cassette tapes with whose voice, none other then Hannah Baker herself. Clay in fact is one of the 13 people to hear why she killed herself, in some way he is actually responsible for it. He decides to listen to the tape and follows Hannah's voice to locations she wants him to see. It speaks of betrayal, secrets, and guilt.

I am not quite far yet in this book but i have been so hooked on it that i have been reading this during lunch as well. It is so strong and touching to read and shows how even the smallest things can impact us on such a large scale. It is quite a handful to read but i am a book worm so i really like it. i REALLY recommend it.

NUMBA 3

Hold Me Down

I found a letter that said:
"I'm sorry that you were asleep when I wrote these words down,"
You'd think I'd ought to be used to that by now.
Save for a few of those late night episodes,
Missed opportunities, and "I Don't Cares,"
There's not a lot that I feel obliged to share or talk about.

I'll have my brother stop by this Saturday to pick up my things,
Just make sure you're not there.
This may sound bad, and don't take it the wrong way..
I love you, however, 
You hold me down 

You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom.
How will I break the news to you? 

Cancel our dinner with Max and Coraline,
feed Jacky's gerbil and try to stay clean.
We'll talk it over after I've had some time alone to sort it out. 
You hold me down 

You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom.
You're the leaky sink of sentiment,
You're the failed attempts I never could forget.
You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love..
How will I break the news to you?

this is one of my most favorite songs, along with my favorite band. This song is kind of sad but the beat and tempo is also very uplifting. i really like the lyrics and how they sound. This song just makes me feel good inside i guess. I recommend it for anyone who likes upbeat but mellow songs. Motion City Soundtrack is one of my favorite bands, i cannot even describe it. I have seen them once in concert and plan on one day meeting them, it would be very nice. But i recommend any of the songs by them but mostly their 3 most recent albums (i am the movie, commit this to memory, even if it kills me)

not to mention i own basically every song by them ;D

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NUMBA 2

The Tracey Fragments

This is literally one of the WEIRDEST movies i have ever seen, hands down. Tracey Berkowitz is a 15- year old girl who is riding the bus in journey to find her younger brother Sonny, whom she lost on a sunny day before the blizzard. This movie is about the twisted life of Tracey. She is stuck in her own mind and runs away. She sits on the back of the bus and tells us her story, wearing nothing but a shower curtain.

I liked this movie and DEFF recommend it, it was the kind that keeps you on your toes and wide awake.

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